it's ok to feel like sometimes getting through the day might be impossible.
it's ok to feel unattractive.
it's ok to feel less than perfect.
I have this awful tendency to say things I probably shouldn't when I get nervous in front of others.
Sometimes it gets really embarrassing.
Sometimes I keep rambling to try and make what I just said better.
That always backfires.
It's because I tend to try and be someone I'm not.
I'm a huge people pleaser that way.
And I'm learning to accept that.
I tell myself I have a heart for people.
And that may be true...
but trying to please every single person is going to ruin me.
I haven't been blogging much.
I was trying to blog every single day and be witty and charming.
But a lot has been going on and I have felt the need to be with my family even more.
With my uncle passing.
My sister getting married.
Seeing my family for a brief moment and then being 1,500 miles away from them again.
Finding out that a role model is actually a fraud.
Learning that the house across from your mother in law had a murder suicide of a mom and 2 littles.
Waiting on tax money to pay off bills to live a bit more comfortable.
It's been a little overwhelming.
And when I feel overwhelmed my mind starts racing to awful things.
It's kind of this thing I have.
I guess you could say that sometimes I am a glass half empty gal.
BUT.
I know that a lot of those feelings are brought on by weakness and Satan taking full advantage of the moment.
So with that being said,
This week is a new one.
A grace filled one.
And being that Easter was yesterday.
I have so much to be thankful for.
My Savior died a horrible death so that I could be free from my sins that I sadly commit everyday.
I will soak up the sun.
I will kiss my babe even more.
I will thank God that even though the days seem to be long and I can't stand another minute,
that he gives me just that.
Another minute.
Have a blessed week, friend.
You deserve it.
yoga is a must of his.
we find it pretty funny and adorable.
You're right Kelli. It is OK. You don't have to try and please anyone but Jesus. And, the good thing about Him is, He is very accepting and forgiving :o) I love you more than ever and I am SO proud of the woman who you've become!
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